[ Will Yuuki ever be free of them...he deserves to be. ]
yep that's what i'm saying! kinda like how you take care of hiyo, right? except i don't usually ask. sena just nags and does stuff cause he wants to! well i do ask if things come up though? maybe hiyo and i are alike in some ways!
yeah, i guess it's sorta like that? ohii-san doesn't always ask me to do things. sometimes i just know what he wants, so i just do it?? guess it's like that since we're partners, or whatever, so it's easy. i never really ask for anything, cuz i'm pretty content. i'd say you and ohii-san are pretty alike in that sense??? at least that's what i think??? you're both bad at looking after yourselves.
[ He means that affectionately! Or, hmm, maybe sometimes Jun is the nagger???? Especially when Hiyori throws tantrums or sulks. What is the truth? Maybe they're all alike in some ways. ]
i guess being in the same unit can make it pretty easy! i guess when it comes to things those guys ask of me it's a lot harder to say no or stick to it, and i want to shower them in all the love they've given to me.
when someone gives you a warm place to live that's bigger than the entire world. ♪
yeah, it makes things easy. would you ever say no to them? the more you care about someone, i think it's harder to say no. for me, i never wanna disappoint someone, so i'm always agreeing to stuff. if someone needs my help, then i wanna help ♪
and i think i understand what you mean, tsukinaga-senpai.
i've said no and run wild all on my own, but i always end up right back in the chair they carved out for me. it isn't a throne but something our naive little ou-sama says is like a seat at a round table, and i prefer that. when any of them asks me something earnestly i feel like i have to meet them head on.
in knights we argue a lot and settle things through duels, falling into line once we've worked out what we wanna do. it's a mess but i like how we do things. ♪ every time they have something to say i'll hear them out and i'll shout all the stuff i wanna say back until we find a space between it to walk together.
as long as they wanna stick with me, i'll stay by their sides. ♪
all that sounds rough. i never realised knights were like that?? i guess all the talk about being knightly, princesses, thrones, and jewels isn't your images talking.
you guys just can't talk it out normally? i guess if that's working for you, then it works. [ Not like Jun can talk; Eden never fucking talk or bother to sort out their issues. ] well, it sounds like a good space to me. it must be nice to sort everything out, even after arguing.
just make sure you're taking care of yourself, alright?
[ Has any unit besides maybe ra*bits just talked about their feelings without being truly dramatic and stupid about it - ]
well, you weren't around during yumenosaki's war, right? hiyo and nagi were but they were pretty much just dancing to tenshi's tune like the rest of us. knights was a unit born in that bloodshed, so we've kept some of those habits even if we're peaceful now.
[ The answer is nope! Imagine units sitting down and talking about their feelings? Wouldn't that make for a fun time? Please send these idols to therapy... they need it.
Also, whatever Leo says next gives him fucking pause, because why? Jun doesn't know much about the Yumenosaki War, besides Ohii-san and Nagi-senpai transferring out. And the moment he met Hiyori, his life changed forever, and for the better. Ohii-san's never spoken about it, and he's never asked why, respecting his partner.
So excuse him; he's staring at the message, trying to decipher what that could mean.
well, i don't know anything about what happened at yumenosaki. i'm from reimei, and shit was happening there at the time. [ Liiike Tatsumi-senpai starting a revolution, Kaname being Kaname, and Jun almost having a fucking breakdown, losing two important people to him.
And then? He met Hiyori. ]
really, i dunno what you mean. i just know there's a reason why ohii-san and nagi-senpai transferred out. and, yeah? it's good you guys are good now, that you've moved past whatever "bloodshed" you're talking about.
[ It's not like! Most of the Yumenosaki idols who lived it are traumatized or anything! It's not like Leo still has self worth issues and keeps offering to die so Knights can go on without him.
Where is a single idol school that didn't get fucked up - ]
tenshi is probably done causing problems on purpose for at least a year or two.
ok, good. i'm pretty sure i don't wanna know about it...
[ And, then, he'll wonder so many things: wasn't Hiyori just like those damned Specials who treated him like dirt? And he doesn't want to think about what his partner would be or if he'd want to act that way.
Shuuetsu's probably the only idol school that's not - ]
alright, but you said *on purpose*. and for a *year or two*? i don't like those odds...
it's not like i can't understand some of his thought processes, but even i can't understand all of them. like the rest of us, he seems to have been a little bit tamed...but it's still that guy. he's a blockhead.
it was because of love that he tossed the apple of discord on the floor of yumenosaki, and he definitely isn't ever gonna regret that. i can forgive it to some degree, but it still pisses me off if i think too hard about it. it would be way better if i didn't understand!
the stage back then didn't have our producer, either, so he wouldn't be able to run quite so wild.
i think he scares me, or he gives me a bad vibe. i dunno, it's probably both and just cuz i don't know him at all. and what i know is through ohii-san or someone else like himemiya-kun.
..that's.. not a reason to do that? there's no way love's gonna make anyone act like that, right? you've got to be fucking stupid as hell to think it would. [ Except Tatsumi-senpai. He could do no wrong. ] love makes you feel good, like there's something or someone out there who cares about you and wants to take care of you, right? so it's making me mad, just hearing he's never gonna regret it.
[ And said by the guy who knows nothing about love—what a total loser. ]
what does that last part mean? you guys didn't have anyone looking after you??
rather than not knowing him, that's more like a dog catching scent of a predator?
anyway, while it would be great if love only made you do kind things and feel good things...that's definitely not the way the world is. love can be a painful thing that causes you to shatter everything around you in the name of it. i won't argue it's stupid...but love can make you pretty stupid.
but yeah, anzu transferred in after all that. she was the first producer yumenosaki ever had. it was pretty wild back then before even the student council had the power it ended up having.
yeah, unfortunately, i know that, but any love i'd wanna feel now would only be the right kind. i guess i don't understand how that feeling can turn twisted, making you do stuff like want to shatter the good things in your life.
[ Maybe because he received no love from his shitty old man, he doesn't understand. But, hmm, yeah, love can make you pretty stupid. That's one thing Jun will agree with! Though, not aloud. ]
is that why she's so normal? i never knew that, i always thought she was there. guess i'm learning some new things today ♪ sounds as if the student council was nothing but a cult.
is that your way of saying to write a jaws like theme? i can do a dedication like that, you know!
what a good kid you are! ♪ speaking as someone who definitely broke that fragile treasure before and didn't understand what to do with it...sometimes it comes down to not understanding what someone wants from you and trying to give them things they never asked for. or things they asked for but didnt want you to kill yourself to provide. it turns out that sometimes you've gotta say the important things instead of assume they're being heard without you speaking. even though i say that now, there's still a lot of stuff i've yet to say to my knights. ♪ little by little i'm trying.
actually, anzu transferred out of my little sister's school. ♪ weird how that works!
what??? no?? but if that's something you wanna write, i'm not about to stop you. [ Can't believe Leo wrote the Jaws theme. ]
alright, i think i follow what you mean. love guides us to pick either the good or bad? my time in reimei before i met ohii-san was hell, but i still didn't give up cuz i wanted to be an idol to prove it to everyone i could. [ And his last name was already tainted, thanks to his dad, so Jun never really stood a chance. ] that's why i admire tatsumi-senpai. even when things were dark, he'd always see the good in life. he helped all of us get through the hardships back at reimei, kinda like a saviour would. but it's easy to be taken advantage of when you can't say no. and you're saying that's what happened to you?
[ Jun thiiiinks that's what Leo means; he's sort of reading-between-the-lines here. Or it just means Eichi is a complete jerk, which isn't wrong. ]
oh! your little sister, huh? did you already know anzu-san?
[ Well, Eichi IS a jerk even if he likes you, but... ]
some people did take advantage of me, i guess. sena and tenshi said so anyway and i do understand that, but it was me who misunderstood how they felt about me. love isn't always returned!
but also...making people happy can be hard. my first friend ever has always had a harsher view of the world than me. because he wanted to be at the top of everything i tried to pave that path for him. i thought making his dreams come true was what would make him smile for me, but he didn't like seeing me break for him, so...honestly, i'm just not that smart a guy. ♪
as to anzu, nah. but sometimes ruka-tan talks about her school and how things are there and i remember anything she says. well, i try to!
[ He's so relieved that Hiyori is the only unpleasant noble he has to deal with, except for Tori sometimes??? However, since Tori likes manga, dealing with him isn't too bad.
Now he's learning Yumenosaki is, or was, just as bad as Reimei. He just knows Ibara's trying to abolish the Special and Non-Special student issue Reimei has. ]
yeah, but you poured something into them? something like love? i figured, but that's taking advantage of how you feel.
sure it can; you're never gonna make every single person happy, even if the thought is kinda nice. in a perfect world, maybe we can, but we make loads of people happy as idols, so something like that is close enough. you shouldn't say that about yourself, cuz there are plenty of people who think you're smart, myself included.
[ Ah, so that guy used Leo? Jun doesn't like those sorts of implications, not one bit. Not that Jun can talk; he often calls himself an idiot when grades are involved. ]
wow, it must be like fate she transferred in. i guess your sisters school must be different from ours. does she go to another idol school, then???
[ He's a genius but he's also an idiot in a lot of ways. Still... ]
i get the feeling you're a kind kid who's gonna overthink it, so let me start out saying that i wrote these things because i wanted to. ♪ i wasn't asked to. i offered. i wanna hear you all singing my songs and i wanna sing them together with you.
but there was a time when i wrote songs for people and thought "i love them! we're friends!" and no matter what bad things people said about them, i'd defend them. every time sena and tenshi said those guys were only using me i told them to shut up.
still, the day i asked those dear friends of mine to pick between me or the songs i wrote for them, all of them picked the latter. ♪ that kind of story happens a lot in the world. i don't regret what i gave to them; it's me who loved them, and loving someone doesn't always guarantee a return. it's not an investment!
love's complicated! i love it!
ruka-tan goes to kimisaki! she's really good with lyrics. ♪ often she'll help me write some!
[ Help!! He's definitely overthinking it. When you have a complicated relationship with love, of course you'll overthink everything concerning it. ]
you hit the nail on the head or whatever the saying is. okay, it still sorta complicates whatever you're saying. cuz then wouldn't people only wanna be friends with you if they get something outta it? you writing them a song or whatever.
seeing people get taken advantage of makes me sick. that's why i was sorta confused by what you said, but it's still true. you can't really love everyone, though? your hearts gonna hurt a lot if you do that. cuz reading all that, i can't help but feel a little sad.
[ It sounds complicated. And maybe Jun will form his own, better opinion on love once he figures that out. But, hmm, an investment? Maybe he'll pass, after all. ]
isn't that the all-girls school? so you've got two geniuses in the family.
[ Love isn't an investment!! It's just what you do - and yes Leo has a lot of ??? fucked up views on love as someone who easily loves everyone. ]
well, that was the choice. either they could keep me as a friend but never sing my songs again and i wouldn't compose for them, or they could freely use all my music and never speak to me again. if i asked that question of my knights, i feel like i'd get a totally different and characteristically selfish answer, though.
as to that - well, i love a lot of people. i love guys like you, too.
and we do~ but ruka-tan is a cute genius beyond even my talent! if you met her, you would understand!
oh, but you're not allowed to meet her. i don't want anyone falling in love with her. ♪
[ Okay, maybe love isn't an investment!! Jun better come back and remember this conversation in a couple of months. But he does! Leo deserves so many hugs. :( ]
i don't think i need to ask what option was picked. well, that's not gonna happen here! but i think knights wouldn't do that, would they? they really seem to care about you based on what you've said.
[ Even if Jun can't say he loves people, the message makes his heart swell, and he's smiling. How nice to have friends you care about! ]
those are big shoes to fill, cuz you're already a genius. but huh???
i'm not gonna fall in love with your sister. that's way outta bounds! idols can't fall in love, anyway!! [ PLEASE DO NOT COME FOR HIM, LEO. ]
[ They can talk again in person this event tdm if Jun isn't in hiding, I'm gonna toplevel - ]
oh, whoops! did i give the impression i thought they'd pick the music? just, thinking about them...i feel like they'd tell me to shut up and sing with them like we always do. ♪ not choosing me or my music, but probably selfishly demanding i stay with them just like always. that's how we are.
and as long as you get it! though i don't think idols can't fall in love. they're not supposed to date, but you can't stop your heart from tripping when you miss a step!
[ He's not hiding anymore, but, well, it's complicated after going to bed with Hiyori multiple times, which is why he's equally confused about the feeling of love! And Jun will see Leo there! ]
maybe for a bit, but i figured they'd never do anything like that. it's gotta feel nice, even if they say that to you, right? that's letting you know they wanna be by your side forever ♪
of course, i get it! sure, since our love is meant to be for the fans. i still wouldn't say dating in a place like this is easy, so i guess it's better to keep your heart locked away ♪
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yep that's what i'm saying! kinda like how you take care of hiyo, right? except i don't usually ask. sena just nags and does stuff cause he wants to! well i do ask if things come up though? maybe hiyo and i are alike in some ways!
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yeah, i guess it's sorta like that? ohii-san doesn't always ask me to do things. sometimes i just know what he wants, so i just do it?? guess it's like that since we're partners, or whatever, so it's easy. i never really ask for anything, cuz i'm pretty content. i'd say you and ohii-san are pretty alike in that sense??? at least that's what i think??? you're both bad at looking after yourselves.
[ He means that affectionately! Or, hmm, maybe sometimes Jun is the nagger???? Especially when Hiyori throws tantrums or sulks. What is the truth? Maybe they're all alike in some ways. ]
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when someone gives you a warm place to live that's bigger than the entire world. ♪
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and i think i understand what you mean, tsukinaga-senpai.
[ Eden's definitely that way for him, too. ]
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in knights we argue a lot and settle things through duels, falling into line once we've worked out what we wanna do. it's a mess but i like how we do things. ♪ every time they have something to say i'll hear them out and i'll shout all the stuff i wanna say back until we find a space between it to walk together.
as long as they wanna stick with me, i'll stay by their sides. ♪
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you guys just can't talk it out normally? i guess if that's working for you, then it works. [ Not like Jun can talk; Eden never fucking talk or bother to sort out their issues. ] well, it sounds like a good space to me. it must be nice to sort everything out, even after arguing.
just make sure you're taking care of yourself, alright?
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well, you weren't around during yumenosaki's war, right? hiyo and nagi were but they were pretty much just dancing to tenshi's tune like the rest of us. knights was a unit born in that bloodshed, so we've kept some of those habits even if we're peaceful now.
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Also, whatever Leo says next gives him fucking pause, because why? Jun doesn't know much about the Yumenosaki War, besides Ohii-san and Nagi-senpai transferring out. And the moment he met Hiyori, his life changed forever, and for the better. Ohii-san's never spoken about it, and he's never asked why, respecting his partner.
So excuse him; he's staring at the message, trying to decipher what that could mean.
He's in fucking shambles. ]
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well, i don't know anything about what happened at yumenosaki. i'm from reimei, and shit was happening there at the time. [ Liiike Tatsumi-senpai starting a revolution, Kaname being Kaname, and Jun almost having a fucking breakdown, losing two important people to him.
And then? He met Hiyori. ]
really, i dunno what you mean. i just know there's a reason why ohii-san and nagi-senpai transferred out. and, yeah? it's good you guys are good now, that you've moved past whatever "bloodshed" you're talking about.
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[ It's not like! Most of the Yumenosaki idols who lived it are traumatized or anything! It's not like Leo still has self worth issues and keeps offering to die so Knights can go on without him.
Where is a single idol school that didn't get fucked up - ]
tenshi is probably done causing problems on purpose for at least a year or two.
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[ And, then, he'll wonder so many things: wasn't Hiyori just like those damned Specials who treated him like dirt? And he doesn't want to think about what his partner would be or if he'd want to act that way.
Shuuetsu's probably the only idol school that's not - ]
alright, but you said *on purpose*. and for a *year or two*? i don't like those odds...
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it was because of love that he tossed the apple of discord on the floor of yumenosaki, and he definitely isn't ever gonna regret that. i can forgive it to some degree, but it still pisses me off if i think too hard about it. it would be way better if i didn't understand!
the stage back then didn't have our producer, either, so he wouldn't be able to run quite so wild.
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i dunno, it's probably both and just cuz i don't know him at all. and what i know is through ohii-san or someone else like himemiya-kun.
..that's.. not a reason to do that? there's no way love's gonna make anyone act like that, right? you've got to be fucking stupid as hell to think it would. [ Except Tatsumi-senpai. He could do no wrong. ] love makes you feel good, like there's something or someone out there who cares about you and wants to take care of you, right? so it's making me mad, just hearing he's never gonna regret it.
[ And said by the guy who knows nothing about love—what a total loser. ]
what does that last part mean? you guys didn't have anyone looking after you??
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anyway, while it would be great if love only made you do kind things and feel good things...that's definitely not the way the world is. love can be a painful thing that causes you to shatter everything around you in the name of it. i won't argue it's stupid...but love can make you pretty stupid.
but yeah, anzu transferred in after all that. she was the first producer yumenosaki ever had. it was pretty wild back then before even the student council had the power it ended up having.
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yeah, unfortunately, i know that, but any love i'd wanna feel now would only be the right kind. i guess i don't understand how that feeling can turn twisted, making you do stuff like want to shatter the good things in your life.
[ Maybe because he received no love from his shitty old man, he doesn't understand. But, hmm, yeah, love can make you pretty stupid. That's one thing Jun will agree with! Though, not aloud. ]
is that why she's so normal? i never knew that, i always thought she was there. guess i'm learning some new things today ♪ sounds as if the student council was nothing but a cult.
[ Not that he can talk... ]
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what a good kid you are! ♪ speaking as someone who definitely broke that fragile treasure before and didn't understand what to do with it...sometimes it comes down to not understanding what someone wants from you and trying to give them things they never asked for. or things they asked for but didnt want you to kill yourself to provide. it turns out that sometimes you've gotta say the important things instead of assume they're being heard without you speaking. even though i say that now, there's still a lot of stuff i've yet to say to my knights. ♪ little by little i'm trying.
actually, anzu transferred out of my little sister's school. ♪ weird how that works!
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alright, i think i follow what you mean. love guides us to pick either the good or bad? my time in reimei before i met ohii-san was hell, but i still didn't give up cuz i wanted to be an idol to prove it to everyone i could. [ And his last name was already tainted, thanks to his dad, so Jun never really stood a chance. ] that's why i admire tatsumi-senpai. even when things were dark, he'd always see the good in life. he helped all of us get through the hardships back at reimei, kinda like a saviour would. but it's easy to be taken advantage of when you can't say no. and you're saying that's what happened to you?
[ Jun thiiiinks that's what Leo means; he's sort of reading-between-the-lines here. Or it just means Eichi is a complete jerk, which isn't wrong. ]
oh! your little sister, huh? did you already know anzu-san?
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some people did take advantage of me, i guess. sena and tenshi said so anyway and i do understand that, but it was me who misunderstood how they felt about me. love isn't always returned!
but also...making people happy can be hard. my first friend ever has always had a harsher view of the world than me. because he wanted to be at the top of everything i tried to pave that path for him. i thought making his dreams come true was what would make him smile for me, but he didn't like seeing me break for him, so...honestly, i'm just not that smart a guy. ♪
as to anzu, nah. but sometimes ruka-tan talks about her school and how things are there and i remember anything she says. well, i try to!
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Now he's learning Yumenosaki is, or was, just as bad as Reimei. He just knows Ibara's trying to abolish the Special and Non-Special student issue Reimei has. ]
yeah, but you poured something into them? something like love? i figured, but that's taking advantage of how you feel.
sure it can; you're never gonna make every single person happy, even if the thought is kinda nice. in a perfect world, maybe we can, but we make loads of people happy as idols, so something like that is close enough. you shouldn't say that about yourself, cuz there are plenty of people who think you're smart, myself included.
[ Ah, so that guy used Leo? Jun doesn't like those sorts of implications, not one bit. Not that Jun can talk; he often calls himself an idiot when grades are involved. ]
wow, it must be like fate she transferred in. i guess your sisters school must be different from ours. does she go to another idol school, then???
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i get the feeling you're a kind kid who's gonna overthink it, so let me start out saying that i wrote these things because i wanted to. ♪ i wasn't asked to. i offered. i wanna hear you all singing my songs and i wanna sing them together with you.
but there was a time when i wrote songs for people and thought "i love them! we're friends!" and no matter what bad things people said about them, i'd defend them. every time sena and tenshi said those guys were only using me i told them to shut up.
still, the day i asked those dear friends of mine to pick between me or the songs i wrote for them, all of them picked the latter. ♪ that kind of story happens a lot in the world. i don't regret what i gave to them; it's me who loved them, and loving someone doesn't always guarantee a return. it's not an investment!
love's complicated! i love it!
ruka-tan goes to kimisaki! she's really good with lyrics. ♪ often she'll help me write some!
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you hit the nail on the head or whatever the saying is. okay, it still sorta complicates whatever you're saying. cuz then wouldn't people only wanna be friends with you if they get something outta it? you writing them a song or whatever.
seeing people get taken advantage of makes me sick. that's why i was sorta confused by what you said, but it's still true. you can't really love everyone, though? your hearts gonna hurt a lot if you do that. cuz reading all that, i can't help but feel a little sad.
[ It sounds complicated. And maybe Jun will form his own, better opinion on love once he figures that out. But, hmm, an investment? Maybe he'll pass, after all. ]
isn't that the all-girls school? so you've got two geniuses in the family.
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well, that was the choice. either they could keep me as a friend but never sing my songs again and i wouldn't compose for them, or they could freely use all my music and never speak to me again. if i asked that question of my knights, i feel like i'd get a totally different and characteristically selfish answer, though.
as to that - well, i love a lot of people. i love guys like you, too.
and we do~ but ruka-tan is a cute genius beyond even my talent! if you met her, you would understand!
oh, but you're not allowed to meet her. i don't want anyone falling in love with her. ♪
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i don't think i need to ask what option was picked. well, that's not gonna happen here! but i think knights wouldn't do that, would they? they really seem to care about you based on what you've said.
[ Even if Jun can't say he loves people, the message makes his heart swell, and he's smiling. How nice to have friends you care about! ]
those are big shoes to fill, cuz you're already a genius. but huh???
i'm not gonna fall in love with your sister. that's way outta bounds! idols can't fall in love, anyway!! [ PLEASE DO NOT COME FOR HIM, LEO. ]
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oh, whoops! did i give the impression i thought they'd pick the music? just, thinking about them...i feel like they'd tell me to shut up and sing with them like we always do. ♪ not choosing me or my music, but probably selfishly demanding i stay with them just like always. that's how we are.
and as long as you get it! though i don't think idols can't fall in love. they're not supposed to date, but you can't stop your heart from tripping when you miss a step!
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maybe for a bit, but i figured they'd never do anything like that. it's gotta feel nice, even if they say that to you, right? that's letting you know they wanna be by your side forever ♪
of course, i get it! sure, since our love is meant to be for the fans. i still wouldn't say dating in a place like this is easy, so i guess it's better to keep your heart locked away ♪
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