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( How is it that he manages to come across as both confident and clueless? It's something of a talent, Esikko thinks, and crossed with the warm feeling of fingers wrapping around him, it's driving him a little crazy. Not necessarily in a bad way, either...

He likes that request, of course. To talk about the thing he's passionate about, the thing he's spent every lifetime focusing on— he wants to. But it's different, the way he embraces his passion compared to Leo. Leo seems to be fine with stopping everything to write on whatever he can at the time and get it out of him. Esikko finds it vulnerable, finds it a little scary, to voice things that he has a great interest in at the risk of them shutting it down like everyone so often does...

Mrgh. He doesn't want to get too wrapped up in thoughts, doesn't want to worry when he's dealing with the tension of a growing arousal and Leo teasing him with a too gentle grip. )

The first spell... Wasn't anything impressive or anything, you know.

( His embarrassment crosses through, in him explaining like that, though his tone also carries weight, like leaning over a railing. He stretches himself a little, pressing his hips up, interested in more. Any more attention that he gets leads to falters in his breath, little pauses, and the like, but he speaks all the same: )

In the gardens of the palace, I used magic to grow a flower. I hadn't grasped what my best method for using it was, just yet, so I drew the patterns in the soil, and I placed offerings, lit candles... but the most that grew was a tiny sapling that withered away within the hour.

Edited 2025-01-14 06:01 (UTC)

You don't think that's impressive? Hm. So Ikko's one of those guys who thinks that it's gotta be big and flashy to impress! I see. [ That is overtly teasing, gentle though it is, but Leo isn't trying to shut down a conversation he opened. His grip does tighten in response to either the movement or the honesty, but he won't clarify which. Maybe it's both. ]

We'll disagree, 'cause the first tiny step is always, in retrospect, the biggest one you ever took. Don't you think? [ His first love was a piano in a music shop. Leo's insane about passions in a distinctly offbeat way, and he thinks he hears something like devotion in a quiet little story about a dying flower. He likes it. The weird intimacy, the distracting conversation, is something he falls into easily and earnestly.

But it's not like he's totally forgotten what he's doing. ]

What type of flower? [ It's asked against Esikko's thighs still but then he shifts in the same lazy and focused way so his breath is more against Esikko's dick like he's debating asking for a magical lecture while blowing him which he. Is. Earlier he got told to earn it but he asks anyway: ]

Wanna see how coherently you can teach me about it while I do this? [ Brightly said, and he does intend to listen if it's agreed to. ]

Don't say it like that...

( Mumbled, at the first part, his hand finally allows Leo's hair to slip free from his fingers completely, running his palm back up and over his own stomach just shortly afterwards. This is getting trickier, trying to focus on this conversation, on being perceived the way he wants to be, and on the blooming sensations of warmth against sensitive skin. )

I— it was a camellia... A red one. Or it was supposed to be. It never even bloomed.

( The idea of trying to focus on explaining magic while he gets blown is both nice and not, somehow— it's embarrassing?! It sounds like he'll just mess up telling it a bunch of times, and that puts Leo on top, doesn't it? He doesn't want to just roll over like that.

Even if he did like, literally just roll over, it's different. )

You're just trying to learn about it in an easy way, aren't you? Mm. ( A pause, half to suck in a breath at the one ghosted against his dick, and half to contemplate. ) I can tell you about the method I found works best for me, if you want. My blood.

[ Instead of the "yes" that was probably expected, that absolutely is bubbling up through his veins, when Leo opens his mouth again he says instead: ]

A noble death. [ Never bloomed and wilted - they're similar enough. Leo knows that flowers mean different things in different cultures on Earth, however much overlap there is. How different is the meaning in another world entirely? There's some things that seem to overlap, technology and cultures that match almost exactly or that have one specific linchpin that changes so many other things - it's fascinating, and yet despite knowing it might mean nothing he doesn't really explain it fully. It's just a quiet statement. If his gaze was any less intent it could almost be something said idly, but instead it ends up being one of those things he says like he's trying to pull off someone's skin to see the what their organs look like underneath, seemingly focused on something beyond the words he's listening to even as he drinks them in.

He's been accused of not seeing people like humans when he's like this, once or twice. But Leo thinks maybe it's the opposite thing entirely: he thinks people probably don't like being seen as human, when being seen like that often means seeing all the ugly, grasping bits of people even when they don't want them seen.

He still can't see any of it as ugly. ]

Love and devotion unrealized. [ Because that's for blooming, isn't it? Well, Esikko probably doesn't actually care about this, maybe? Leo knows he gets distracted all the time, and he ends up smiling and managing to get back on task without being ordered around for once. ]

Yeah, I wanna know. You can quiz me later if you want! [ Why he's making some reassurance he's gonna pay attention is really only known to Leo himself, but then he decides as abruptly as anything else to actually get back on topic with the promise of Esikko having to talk to him through it. Which is maybe the other half of the reason why he asked.

His mouth is at least as warm as his hands, and he's not shy about it, licking a curious and testing strip up the side before mouthing the head of it. ]

( Esikko knows flower language better than anyone he's ever met. To him, the feeling comes naturally with the flower, with the plant, a variety of symbolism that he can't escape. While he hadn't chosen the flower with any intention more than it being pretty when he was a child, the irony hadn't escaped him, it's true. But he's shocked, actually, to hear anyone reference it at all to him.

And so it makes him pause a bit, catches him off guard and leaves him unsure of what to say for longer than he realizes, until the warmth of a wet tongue is dragging up alongside his growing arousal in a casual lick, sparking a sensation through him that earns a surprised little breath.

Right, he'd forgotten where he was, for a moment. )

Ah, right. Everyone can do magic, but it's like art and science combined. To find how it works best for you, you...

( This is both harder and easier than he thought it would be. It's easy when he gets into a ramble, focused and a little excited to share, to have someone who cares enough to listen, but then falling into that so much makes the touch of lips around the head of his dick that much more noticeable. Warm, soft, enough to make him want to squirm, when he really wants to make Leo earn those little noises. His breath hitches, for a moment, and then he continues. )

Well, you have to find it yourself. There are methods that can run in family lines, but it's no guarantee, and the practice has fallen out, so it was even more difficult to discover books from that time.

( He watches Leo as he works, his own breaths deepening as he does. Is this really enough? To just blow him and listen to him... yap...?? )

I had tried so many methods, but I finally was able to find the books my father hid away. It's blood magic that works well for my family, so that's what I tried, and it worked for me, too.

[ Whatever warnings Hiyori gave out definitely did not encompass any of this, did they? Esikko had mentioned that Hiyori said Leo wouldn't be dull, which is admittedly the one thing he reliably usually isn't, but "he isn't dull" probably did not adequately prepare Esikko for the whiplash of being cheerfully called out for something that felt like a hidden insult shifting to ranting about music or magic or passion shifting to outright threats and amused warnings to at least a dozen other things before Leo'd ended up casually throwing out something that finally completely threw him. Leo notices it but doesn't really understand it - he doesn't think anything of analyzing the symbolism of something out loud.

You need to be comfortable with symbolism and literary themes when you write music day in and out, and while Leo definitely wouldn't know every single flower, he knows enough about flower language to call it up to use in music at a need or to debate what this or that flower or color or anything else might be in an art piece with Shu, who's still the most fun person Leo's ever met to argue loudly about such things with. Nearly everything Leo knows can be connected back like that - something useful for composing, something that can help him analyze the works of other musicians, something he thinks would make a wonderful framework for a story in a song.

He's not sure what it was about saying it aloud that got to Esikko at all, but it doesn't matter that much in the moment. Instead, Leo pictures camellias and that's the click that slides it into place in his mind. The hook through his stomach that he never bothers to try to escape as the melody spirals out before him, more defined and less something at the edge of his hearing.

There's a song. There's more than one song. There's always gonna be a million possibilities, and he can only grasp so many with his tiny human brain, which is the absolute worst thing in existence, because for every song finally born into his thoughts and out through ink stained fingers there's another one (another billion) that die as he's working on the first.

There's a song, though, and he even already has some phrasing flickering through his mind. It flows along to the sound of a low voice that's trying to be all controlled, and Leo thinks cute but he can't toss that out when his mouth is full so Esikko is spared another total switch of tone and topic because Leo with his mouth otherwise occupied means Leo not interrupting and throwing them bodily down some other conversational path.

It's easier not to go a thousand miles away when what he's composing is still beneath him, inspiration not yet gone. So he's still in the moment enough to keep memorizing the sound and what he's being told. Makes a mental note to ask about what other methods as he casually and easily takes Esikko in further with no sign of difficulty. A gag reflex isn't an issue he's ever had, and the previous mental notes have his left hand smoothing over the hickey he'd left on Esikko's thigh as Leo looks up at him, working it out.

Like with before, kissing, he takes his time. What pace gets a hitch of breath, or if he presses his tongue here or swallows then can he make Esikko lose his place? Anything that doesn't have one of those minute positive reactions he's intent on is placed aside, and anything negative thrown out, but there's that tenacious and utterly focused kind of energy he only ever gets for music or this which means that Leo's entire focus is Esikko. It's exactly as intense and crushing as he said it would be, but it should be fine, right? ]

It's not this... instant sort of thing, like so many people here think, or how so many people here can do it. It takes work and time, and planning, and creating and undoing...

( The attention is intense. It's the sort of intense he craves, like water to a dehydrated plant, but it's embarrassing all the same, turning his cheeks and ears a little pink as he struggles to keep calm and collected. It's easier when he's the one in control of things, and so that's normally what he defaults to, for his pride— but this place has opened him up to a lot more, and he's learned that it's worth it to suffer a little embarrassment for the sake of the reward that comes after.

Leo can swallow him surprisingly well. His eyes trace his face as he does, feeling the heat pooled in the pit of his stomach tightening, twisting, and resisting the urge to buck his hips upwards impatiently, seeking out more instant gratification rather than the slow build. But the slow build is nicer, even if it's hard to allow for himself, and so he shifts his legs a little to make up for it, hooking one of them around Leo as if to keep him close. )

There are things like magic circles to learn, as bases, but then you just need the materials, the setup, and in blood magic blood acts as a sort of fuel or energy. It became increasingly difficult, since I was born... ill, but—

( He can feel Leo's warm breath against him, especially when he takes him in as close as that, and he hooks his leg tighter to make up for the burning desire to press in deeper still, to completely give in. He exhales out in a soft hiss, an attempt to hold back the groan that wants to slip free, and lifts an arm to rest over his head, like the stretch of his body might help the feelings. )

I can use any blood as a base. ( Even though his blood is Special, technically... That's his secret. For now, anyway. )

[ Composing a spell and composing a song do sound similar, don't they? Even if the end result is wildly different and the details don't quite match up - but the time and planning and effort of putting something down and then realizing it isn't quite right or doesn't properly work and then adjusting it incrementally again and again as you undo things to redo them better until you reach the nearest possible thing to perfection - that matches up, doesn't it?

Never as effortless as it seems, but always worth it by the end.

Leo's got breath control down to an art. Not the kink - he likes it, sure, but usually done on him - but the thing you learn when you're someone who sings professionally on stage while dancing around a lot. It has alternative applications, even though Hiyori seemed kind of offended when Leo flippantly mentioned them. Namely: he's really good at timing his breathing properly regardless of what activity he's engaging in, he has a better than decent lung capacity and can go without a breath long enough for the complicated dance moves and solos he has to work through live all the time, and he's good at not panicking through it.

It helps him out a lot when he's actively starting to deepthroat someone. There's a considering hum as he thinks about asking to see a spell base sometime, but again he holds off his own questions. Just for now. Just for a bit. He'll bother Esikko with all of them later, probably, off and on.

Then, because he remembered his own little mental promise earlier, his right index finger is back up to play with the navel piercing, toying with it before he actually yanks a little. Careful precision because he doesn't wanna actually yank it out. ]

Words... are incredibly important in magic, too. Words and shapes. When I draw something out, it's like writing— each shape carries a different meaning or purpose, and you connect them with the typical connectors to form something like a sentence...

( He's beginning to struggle to know what to go on about, and that's how he knows that Leo is getting to him. He would never run out of things to say about magic. He could ramble about it, excitedly, for hours at a time, for days if given the chance. But right now, it's rising warmth and focused affection without so much as a falter, and Esikko breathes in deeply to appreciate it, tiny squirms trying to relieve the tension that's building. )

The tone of a word can mean a huge difference, even if it's the same magic term. A plant blooming, or dried up roots, for example. It— ah—

( The yank of his belly button piercing after careful toying earns a surprised little gasp, met with the smallest lift of his hips. It means he's pressing himself further into Leo's mouth without any consideration for the rhythm he's set up, and that's enough to earn another little groan from him. Magic, magic, he got the gist of it out, didn't he? And he can expand on so much more later, when he has more focus, more time, less distraction. Right now, he wants to chase this feeling, this warmth, this attention. )

It's... important. ( What had he been saying? Ugh. )

[ Don't laugh with your mouth full, Leo has to remind himself. It would just make this all awkward although there's a stuttered movement of his tongue as he as to suppress it, a warmer huff of air through his nose as his body tries anyway. That little It's important with a distracted flush as Esikko loses his train of thought entirely, like Leo could actually keep playing an entire piece on the piano through someone blowing him. But hypocrisy is fine when it looks and sounds like this, he thinks.

There's no reason to mind the rhythm being messed up because there's never one steady thread for sex. It's give and take and push and pull and stops and starts and Leo gives every sign of enjoyment for it, because a pretty groan and thrusting up is enough to make him groan with it, and he knows he's grinding his own hips down into the couch but he's not bothering to touch himself besides that absent minded movement. It doesn't matter right now. He's focusing on Esikko instead of himself which...is...isn't he the one with a mark that's darker, yes, but Leo likes to edge things out because it's fun and dangerous and because he'd rather see someone else fall apart at least three quarters of the time.

He's still trying to see how rough. He's slept with a few people who don't mind the slightest scrape of teeth like this but it's always kind of a dangerous trick - something barely there, and pulling back if that's bad, but experimental defines a lot of what he does. And Esikko liked some of the other rough stuff. ]

You...

( Still trying, Esikko moves his arm to drape over his own eyes, as if that might help cover the expressions he's starting to make. Leo's groan rumbles from around him, and that combined with the scrape of teeth, subtle as it is, has his body shuddering. It's almost too much, from the way his breath almost hisses out, but then he rocks his hips up again, free hand grasping to find Leo, to find his hair, something to grab onto. It's taking every bit of self control to not flip them onto the floor and start fucking into him, but he's trying to be... reasonable. Patient. )

You get the idea.

( He's done explaining. )

[ Esikko's done explaining so Leo pulls off because he can honestly be annoying and there's pure affectionate laughter in his expression even though he's being mean. He's being mean to both of them because he doesn't want to stop but he has this thing about edging himself sometimes along with whatever unfortunate soul gets caught up with him, so he grins like he's begging to get punched or something. ]

But I wanted to hear more about the different types of bases for spells? [ He actually does want to hear about this more, for the record. But he's also so obviously just being a jerk for the sake of it, playful with it, even though his hands are still on Esikko's body because he can't bring himself to go totally hands off even if he goes mouth off to see if he'll get yelled at yet. ]

That's...

( That's not fair, first of all! The start of that sentence comes out with such force that the rest of it sort of fizzles out at first, and Esikko throws the arm away from his own face to flop against the couch, eyes pointing down at Leo. He can feel his arousal twitching at the sudden lack of attention, of warmth, and he tries again. )

That's a different topic. I'll tell you later.

( With a frustrated little noise he tries to keep held back, he rocks his hips up, trying to get some more friction. )

You can't stop now.

I mean, I totally could if I wanted to jump into my suit effects fully. That could be kinda interesting, I guess, but I get the feeling I'd probably end up doing something violent. Hate that!

[ Why does he sound so cheerful about it, then. Leo's grip tightens and he pushes down, keeping Esikko in place as he continues on, blithely: ]

Promise to draw one of those bases on me before you leave here and I'll keep going.

[ Blithely and breathlessly. Why has he decided that he wants to see a spell on his own skin? Probably best not to question it too closely and just accept that Leo's completely delighted at the thought and apparently seems to think it's worth blackmail or bribery for his own weird pursuit of pleasure. ]

Huh?

( Yet again, he's surprised by where Leo goes with absolutely anything. But that's an easy sort of answer, one that's met with an impatient little puff and a reach up to touch at his cheek. His body is too cold, even as flushed as he feels from arousal. )

Fine, yes— I'll even do a spell, if you want, so just keep going.

Really? [ He does want that, actually! It's not music, but to Esikko it means the same thing, right? Leo wants to see what that looks like in reverse, so he's beaming happy with it, the emotion bubbling up and overflowing like it always does. Spades is so utterly the reverse of Leo's natural personality (except when it isn't) and maybe that's why he got it. ]

Thanks, Ikko! I love you! ♪ [ Words he always means when he says them, and not something he expects anything back for until he learns the rhythm. Hiyori's "I love me too!" and Jun's embarrassed acceptance that's how Leo is and Rinne laughing about it. Easy affection, difficult affection, endlessly flowing affection -

This has annoyed a lot of other people, too, but anyone who deals with Leo for any real length of time has to find some way of handling it. It's not like he's the sort of person you can change.

The promise of something even more than he asked for (a spell!!!!) is enough to appease his random dive into blackmail, and Leo has no problem holding up his end of the bargain then. Decides that kissing the head of Ikko's dick is a thing he should do (why though) before he gets back to work, pleased enough that he forgot he was going to try to get Ikko to promise to keep talking, too. ]

You...??

( It seemed like a simple wish to grant, one that he has fun with, so he wasn't expecting a burst of the L word like that. Combined with the immediate and enthusiastic bounce back to sucking him off, any words he attempts to formulate are turned into a mess that's entirely caught off guard. He can feel that tension coiling from his core, can feel it approaching that much quicker from a little jump, and it's... stupid. You don't mean that is what he thinks, automatically.

Because he's not like the hearts suit, or at least he never thought he was, but then this place came along and messed with his emotions. Started to make him... care? To think that there are things he wants that he can't just take by force?

Ugh. It was always there, beneath it all, but how was he supposed to know that. Now, he's just going to pretend that he's not closer to release than ever because of it all. )

[ Naru said it was basically a catchphrase, once. But then, Leo always said it near daily to Knights and meant it with total devotion each time. Leo's said it a lot, and the thing people miss sometimes is that he always means it. There's always something true about it. Suki and daisuki da and aishiteru yo thrown about depending on his mood and the moment and so very few people take him seriously but it's not something he'd ever bother to lie about.

There's people he loves in a single moment who might disappear in the next. There's people he loves in every single moment who won't ever be erased even if he never sees them again after his next heartbeat. Love has never been a problem for him - and it's always been the thing that ends up breaking him at some point.

Still, it's always easy. He never minds the inevitable doom that's always possible after you say those words and feel them. It's fine, he thinks, if a story ends in tragedy. Knights never agrees.

More and more and more. More emotions, more sound, more experiences. Every single shining jewel to keep forever and every single moment that will fade away if he doesn't catch it in a melody.

Esikko doesn't have to believe him, either. Leo's eyes are warm anyway, and his mouth is warm, and there's some sort of amused challenge there because he's aware he pushed someone off balance and he can tell it had at least as much of an impact as anything else.

...he's still gonna go back to playing with the navel piercing as he sucks, though, because that reaction was funny, too. Cute and interesting and he thinks a longer chain would be fun to yank. ]

( It's getting harder for him to hold back. It's not easy, from his back like this, to keep rocking his hips upward— but he presses past the ache of his out of shape body to try and meet the dips of Leo's head, and that little yank at his jewelry earns another startled noise, his hand moving automatically over Leo's wrist. Not to stop him, really, but the reflex is there.

It doesn't have to go much longer like this. The warmth is enough, the feelings are enough, and Esikko allows himself to relax into it all. Tension builds until he can't hold it back any longer, and there's a soft whine. There's no verbal warning when he comes, so hopefully Leo doesn't mind that part, either. Just the flexing of his muscles and the hard spurts of cum as he presses up more than before, tries to hold himself there, to hold Leo there so that he can ride out the waves of pleasure. )

[ The only thing he minds about a lack of verbal warning is the part where there isn't sound - not where there's a lack of warning at all. Grabbing Leo's wrist, for the record, gets him to stop what he'd been doing with his hand instantly even though that wasn't the intent. He reads it as stop or wait and Leo always listens to that sort of thing in bed because he doesn't want to do anything hated or unwanted. But he twists his wrist to hold Esikko's hand instead, thumb smoothing over his palm in some silent apology for an imagined slight.

There's no need to hold him down really but he's happy enough not to struggle, obligingly trying to take Esikko to the root and swallowing, utterly focused on that moment of destruction and not wanting to take away from it with anything of his own. He's so quiet, listening and watching, but his tongue doesn't stop moving even if he's blessedly not talking still. It's still usually a good idea to shove something in his mouth to stop all the stupid things he always says.

He's the sort of person who keeps going after it's over, waiting to be shoved off when it gets too oversensitive. ]

( It's nice, at first, that intensity is nice. The overwhelming way it feels has him squirming and gasping, but then all at once it hits a line where he has to push at Leo, gentle and with repeated little whines: )

Okay, okay, no more—

( With a heavy breath, he takes a moment to come down from that intensity, but reaches just as quickly with his arms to encourage Leo back up and over him. Come here. )

[ One push is enough to get him to pull back, at least. Leo's never really been interested in doing anything people didn't want unless he's really deep into Suits effects, and even then his obsessions tend to be colored by who he is as a person.

He's quick and eager to come when called - perhaps a bit too much since he doesn't bother to be careful with it, throwing himself higher with a laugh because he really does like sex and affection and it's easy when he's not being pushed away. He's allowed to kiss so he does, briefly, before pulling off to demand: ]

Hey, take care of me! [ He doesn't say please. ]

( It's pretty cute, all things considered, and Esikko breathes out a laugh for it. Leaning up, he closes the distance once more with another kiss, short and sweet. )

Oh, you want help now? I'm a little tired, though?

( He's teasing, but even as he does so, his hand reaches to ghost slender fingers along the length of Leo's arousal. It's not anywhere near enough, he's sure. )

Have any ideas?

Well yeah and more than half of them won't work with you tired. [ But it doesn't really sound like he minds that, because he doesn't. Leo's not too complicated when it comes to things like this - he doesn't exactly get his heart set in any one way sex plays out so he's happy with whatever direction it goes in. ]

We can try 'em next time. For now, I don't mind that you have cold hands if you keep saying things. You've got the prettiest voice, you know. It makes my brain just flow along from one line to the next. I'm easy for it so just do anything. [ He knows he's being teased, and he's pouting, but Leo also doesn't grab but seems willing to wait a second to see where this is going. ]

Haha, you're taking my complaints seriously? You don't have to worry. I can push myself a little.

( The tired comment was a tease, much like the loose wrap of his fingers around Leo's length now. He pumps his hand there a few times, rolling. They're on the couch, but he wants to be on top for this, if he can. It's an easier angle.

It's also easier to lean in close to his ear, humming. )

Maybe I'll come up with a spell to make things truly exciting, next time.

yay no worries! I am catching up on my inbox slowly tonight so it's good timing

I'm doing tags until sleep claims me, then a round of tag outs tmrw

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